Monday, January 9, 2012

Memory Monday - Great, Great Grandma

This picture is extremely important to me. I found it important to share because the anniversary of my Grandma's death is approaching. I have been thinking about her a lot lately. I miss her so much. This picture was taken in the beginning of September 2009. Owen was still at Doctor's Medical Center. At that time, the doctor was telling us that Owen would not be coming home until December. My Grandma's doctors were telling her she only had a  couple more months, as she was battling cancer for the second time and her body couldn't handle it.
Because of this information and the fact that nobody was aloud into the NICU except for the parents, we were sure my Grandma would never get to meet little Owen. Heath talked to the doctors and they agreed to let her into the NICU for a short period of time. This was so special to me. She was able to come in and touch him and sing to him (what she does best. . . she is a wonderful singer). I have a video of her talking to him and singing to him.
This was the only time my Grandma ever got to spend with Owen. She passed away in January of 2010. Owen was diagnosed with RSV and put on the oscillator the day my Grandma died. It was a very sad time during our NICU stay. The night after my Grandma's funeral, Owen started having seizures and heart arrhythmia's. We were beside ourselves with grief and had a lot on our plates. I was so worried about Owen and so focused on him (as I should have been) that I didn't really go through the grieving process for my Grandma.
As I look back on that time and miss my Grandma, I am comforted by this picture and the video I have to cherish.

I often wish my Grandma was here to hug and kiss my babies. She loved her family, and especially the babies, more than anything in this world. She put the Lord first and taught her family to do the same. She was an amazing person and the most wonderful Grandma. She had a very sick baby as well. My aunt Robin was born without an esophagus and, at that time, they had no idea how to help her. She went through countless surgeries and many experimental procedures. On my hard days, I want so badly to talk to my Grandma, how did she do it? I know she would have many words of wisdom and turn to her Bible to help comfort me.

p.s. I am sorry for being MIA for a week. Our family had a pretty rough week and I, personally, had a very hard week emotionally.

1 comment:

  1. Wow what a precious picture. And I'm sorry about your week :(